Miserable For Nothing

At times, I have the peculiar propensity to make myself miserable over nothing. I have ruined numerous moments, days, and at times, entire weeks, being dissatisfied with the life that I am leading.

As simple and juvenile as it may sound, God has given me the incredible gift of life. Though I have been doing this since I was a youth, lately more so than at other times in my life, there have been moments, too frequent to not feel embarrassed by my own admission, that have been wasted by lending myself to feelings of discontentment.

dis·con·tent·ment n

1. a restless desire for something better  2. a state of being dissatisfied and unhappy with a situation  3. a restless craving for what one does not have.

So, I’m not a CEO, nor do I own a fledging humanitarian organization. Oprah does not want to interview me, and an invitation to speak at TED Talks isn’t in the foreseeable future. I am unmarried, childless, and have yet to purchase my “dream” house, car, and most importantly, dog. I wouldn’t even be able to tell you what they would be, if asked, (except for the dog: Doberman Pincher! Or a Bulldog named Bon-Bon).

However, what I have been able to obtain recently is the knowledge and understanding that without internal peace and satisfaction for my present lot, whatever it may be, I will never find true contentment or fulfillment.

The most sinister realization that I had this week? My life is great; and I haven’t cherished all of the wonderful blessings, people, and moments that I have been given. It may be that, it isn’t that something or someone has potential, but that what is hoped for is already here; it just requires viewing it through the proper lens, one untainted by negativity.

I really am going to try my best to no longer care about being great, important, or leaving some enormous impact on this earth before my time here is done. What I will try to do is recognize the greatness, importance, and impact that can be made in each moment if I take the time to recognize it as such, and approach it in the manner that it deserves.

 A popular quote, but one worth repeating, “Not all of us can do great things. But we can do small things with great love.” – Mother Treasa

Now go and be great, because you already are.

2 thoughts on “Miserable For Nothing

  1. The older I get the more I understand that I don’t want to miss out on the excitement of the journey because I’m thinking only about some destination, some future state of having everything I think I want, and that the “attitude of gratitude” truly is my best state of mind. The best way to break out of any thinking that my life is less than whatever I think it should be, is to stop and take the time to do a mental inventory of all the blessings I have already been given and all the things for which I am so very thankful. It works (and quickly I might add) every time and always on the list is that I have you as my son.


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